The above picture shows Shiprock in northern New Mexico where I studied for a while.
One day, I and my wife (suddenly) decided to find this place and drove without a GPS. It was a really long and confusing drive for us in the beginning. We took wrong paths and were disappointed a few times. We mistakenly saw a few mountains as Shiprock.
But, finally, we saw the small but real image of Shiprock from a distance with our eyes.
The remaining driving, with a destination in our sight, was a joy.
If you are confused and unsure about your future, maybe it is because you cannot see the destination in a reachable distance. My humble opinion is that it is a good idea to do something similar to what you want to do, so that you can have some idea about what you want to achieve eventually.